The Magenta Cow

The death of Jungs transcendent mind As i stared into the mirror though 30 years of disregulation had passed i found myself with a Perculiar patient no not a dr myself a student of the mind i came to realise the patient belongs in the hand of the patient and this is where trauma begins I hit u for being good, i hit u for being bad i hit u for simply beingthe subconscious self a slave to the nuerons finds logic only in the emotional reading of others for before the hit the frown will come the arm will rise this lamguage being the only stability left The attacks are infrequent 10% at most the lack of evidence leads others to disbelief though not fault of their own the trauma is unoticed and now that same slave master must survive To assume all danger and to believe all lies is safer to the mind not guided So together we sit with all problems we confer and three piles simply emerge a lack of a long term tool from cooking to shoe trying the simple guidance the trauma with held The need for fp validation and the fear of abandonment sources of the validation u trust are rare and the loss of them exestensial Seeking of endorphins and external adrenaline Novelty the child was robbed of far too early The transcendent mind jung spoke of is the mind of emotional instability but in the observation as much as the patient the ability to read the patterns of other a skill seemingly uncanny but aligns with skills of the deaf and the blind a new source becoming the priory of logic The shadow has been faced and the mask has been pulled off the understanding of the other sex lessons that settle into the imaginationThe transcendent mind appears for a flicker the moment fleeting and outlined with the mandala The patient slips almost falling deep into the Symbology and metaphors if spiritual meaningBut the snap back is robust and in the moment the clarity of godel is unleashed the years of fixed point valid now shine the message clearly no mind could ever self complete The pupils dilate the peace is apparent I recurse therefore I exist and I use external validation to prove that existent coherent to my external reality I stand in front of my patient bid him a good day and wish him luck on his journey with a smile….i turn away from the mirror realise i was always alone and thats how i got here in the first place