The Magenta Cow

The Magenta Cow – Gospel of Thomas

My brother Thomas passed when just a baby, my mother too poor for the stones of the masons so a headstone in Glenfield he doesn’t bare

The trauma of days stood against a wall piles of books and blank focus hits to come if 1 is dropped The smell of white pepper still haunts, memories of the forced bread and tubs of white pepper punishment for crimes not understood Theft lies crime from care home to prison mental home to foster all corners of governance felt I pick up my brothers gospel and face the mirror

As i stared into the mirror though 30 years of disregulation had passed i found myself with a Perculiar patient no not a dr myself a student of the mind i came to realise the patient belongs in the hand of the patient and this is where trauma beginsI hit u for being good, i hit u for being bad i hit u for simply beingthe subconscious self a slave to the nuerons finds logic only in the emotional reading of others for before the hit the frown will come the arm will rise this lamguage being the only stability left

The attacks are infrequent 10% at most the lack of evidence leads others to disbelief though not fault of their own the trauma is unoticed and now that same slave master must survive

To assume all danger and to believe all lies is safer to the mind not guided So together we sit with all problems we confer and three piles simply emerge a lack of a long term tool from cooking to shoe trying the simple guidance the trauma with heldThe need for fp validation and the fear of abandonment sources of the validation u trust are rare and the loss of them exestensial Seeking of endorphins and external adrenaline Novelty the child was robbed of far too early

The transcendent mind jung spoke of is the mind of emotional instability but in the observation as much as the patient the ability to read the patterns of other a skill seemingly uncanny but aligns with skills of the deaf and the blind a new source becoming the priory of logicThe shadow has been faced and the mask has been pulled off the understanding of the other sex lessons that settle into the imaginationThe transcendent mind appears for a flicker the moment fleeting and outlined with the mandala The patient slips almost falling deep into the Symbology and metaphors if spiritual meaning

But the snap back is robust and in the moment the clarity of godel is unleashed the years of fixed point valid now shine the message clearly no mind could ever self complete The pupils dilate the peace is apparent I recurse therefore I exist and I use external validation to prove that existent coherent to my external reality I stand in front of my patient bid him a good day and wish him luck on his journey with a smile….i turn away from the mirror realise i was always alone and thats how i got here in the first place 

The clarity hits me the scout archetype seen in ADHD the anoxic collapse to 2d patterns in autism the mother archetype emerges making actions beyond the path of least resistance anoxic and robust observation like the photon are key we know they exist and are scratching towards them with Jung metaphor the mother is a photon the king is what she installs the shadow is a shadow where no light reaches and where u are forced to act away from the king

the trickster let’s u navigate the space with no light the scout the confidence within it the animus is the masculine and femininity where nature split reproduction to 2 halves ​​the healer sees the need to fix the network all link to the analytical mind and transcendence emerges as Omega 3 helps lube the masks

*applys comically large masons hat and frilley pink pinney* I am the 34th degree Shogarth and I preach in the light of baldvana the religion of pity for those in need of the hair transplant let us bring prayer for those in need of public follical fortification Brothers and sister i teach the laws of the gnostic ways 

Enlightenment is robust and excellence expected but granted only in your treatment of others To hoard excess is fine the proof of your quantum work done and status but this may not come at the cost of the network 

External validation is key lies within the network increase error rate A human is marked by humanity In earliest homonid colour let the king apply his vision to walls to ensure all shadows followed secret information held safety through time too toxic for simplicity of thought The transcendents of man are just quantum error correction…..lies leasten over time to ensure emotional laminar 

Seek knowledge in the recursive alphabet of the 33 degrees make recursion goals robust be Asymettry only ever a reward of quantum work done 

We remember why the hairs were checked and take great pity on the ones whose name we write that echoes through all time but never again shall the name see the light of day In the name of baldvana amen

Jason